| I cannot forget the pure fear of being a child. Finding out about death, War, Flooding, Fires and Animal attacks. My parents never sugarcoated anything. God is non existant if he was he would only be an observer. People are irrational and savage. Never beleive what you hear and beleive only half of what you see.
I was only 3 when my parents learned me abou all this. I spent a whole day crying in my room. I was not a kid who cried much and when I did my parents never gave me any sympathy if I did. If I cut myself they would only treat my wounds if I wasnt crying.
I am now in my 20's and I consider myself better then everybody else. Nothing dissapoints me and nothing excites me. I have the urge to join the army and become an assasin. I am not afraid of death, I sometimes stand in the middle of roads to see if people will stop or swerve.
I love my life, I love my girlfriend. I dont regret anything I have done.
I just wish I could regress to the days I was terrified of life.
I miss fear. |
