| I used to be overweight. Then I lost 35 pounds. My life has improved so much since I've lost weight, but I'm really worried that I'm not doing it healthily. I don't eat until dinner, and sometimes I throw up dinner. The problem is that my mother encourages me not eating. She was anorexic and my sister is bulemic, so they don't have a problem with it. If my friends show concern for my eating habits and tell me I should eat lunch, my mom tells me not to listen to them because they're jealous. The problem is, I'm exhausted and depressed, and I feel like I will never be able to lose quite enough. It didn't used to be this way, I didn't used to obsess like this. I don't think I have an eating disorder, but they obviously run in my family. The hardest part is that even if I get into a serious eating disorder, my mom will never recognize it as a problem, just an achievement. Even when I fainted at school and they sent me home, she didn't notice. She will never notice that I'm not healthy. It worries me. |
