| My best friend has a new best friend and I am jealous. This doesn't sund like much but we used to be really really close and now she's that close with the new person, they have all these little in-jokes and speak their own language.
I feel really guilty because she has been having a real bad time lately and I haven't been there for her but the new girl has.
I know this is my own fault and I really wish I could just leave and not have any contact with either of them again because I'm really dumb and possessive about her and can't stand to see it yet I realise that I probably don't care about her enough, and the friendship was all rather narcissistic on my part.
I want her to be with someone who can give her what she needs because I can't anymore. But I can't just go because she won't understand and will get upset. And I just feel like a complete wanker about all of this really. And my Dad threw an iron at me last night. It missed though. |
