| They tell me I'm bi-polar. It took a hospitalization to get a diagnosis. It was such a relief to finally know and understand.
But I wonder everyday.
I haven't taken my meds in two months.and no one has noticed. It makes me wonder if my life is fucked-up for other reasons. It scares me that I might not be able to blame my life failures on an illness. Everyone has such high expectations and opinions of me, despite the illness. But maybe my fuck-ups are just ME.
God, I hope not. |
