| god damn it. The girl I like apparently now has a boyfriend. He's 18. She's 14, turning 15 this month. I'm 15 also. God I'm a loser. I hardly even tried to get her. We're friends, and we've been friends for a short while, but then I told her i liked her, and it changed things. It made things harder, i couldn't be her friend without it being obvious that I like her. I'm so lazy and scared and all that shit that I never even really tried. And now it's too late, she's going out with a fuckin' 18 year old and she'll probably get fucked, and I wouldn't be surprised if it wasn't the first time. I just can't win, whenever I get a crush on a girl theres something that i somehow despise, with this one it's that she's a bit of a skank, and i don't really like skanky girls. God damn it. |
