My friends always check out skinny, "hot" girls at the beach, but they are boring to me. I try to be sneaky about checking out the big girls because I'm afraid it'll draw to much attention if I make a big deal about it. that's because my friends say mean things about them. I'm always bummed out that more people aren't as accepting of big girls and then the big girls don't realize that there are more people attracted to them than they think. I've talked to a few other people I know that think they are beautiful, but not many. I wish I could go to the beach and see big girls in bikinis and being comfortable and having a good time. That would be so hot to me. Usually they are also the girls with the best personalities.. I know that's what people say as a cop out about how they look, but I think they are beautiful on the outside too. So it's dumb that they are the girls that would be the best girlfriends but are too shy or suspicious to take it serious. I hang out with a "popular" crowd but most of the kids I've known my whole life. Most of them are shallow, selfish and stupid. In the past couple years I've tried to spend less time with them, but it's hard to break away. The people I would rather spend time with don't trust me because they think I'm like all the other jerks. I just want a REAL girlfriend. A girl that I think is beautiful (not what my friends think) and is a good person. I see that personality more in bigger girls, besides the fact that I'm attracted to them. But it never works out. They won't give me the time of day. Confess ID: xa6vf1lb        Posted On: 23-Dec-2008