I have been very hesitant about posting this. I feel as though I'm complaining like some little cry baby. That however is what i think of myself and only myself. I am not ridiculing anyone that posts on this site.I have an eating disorder. I believe because i was molested as a child, i eat and have made myself look as hideous as i do so that no one will ever get close to me physically or emotionally again. I have never considered suicide because i feel as though it's an easy way out. I'm gonna see this through to the end. Whether that end be happiness from weightloss and even finding a relationship or whther my heart finally quits and i die.I welcome either with a smile on my face. Confess ID: 6b0pbarn        Posted On: 05-Oct-2008