I have this fear, it causes me to have terrible nightmares. Not that it's violent, but the emotion is so strong.. the fear is and jelousy is just as strong. I sleep too much. My parents used to think i did all sorts of drugs because i can't stay awake for more then 10 hours tops, (8 hours usual). Not that i mind, i love sleep. Nothing more relaxing or peacefull. But, then i'll start to fear again. Everyone around me is partying, having fun, and i cannot join in the fun, because i'm asleep. I'm 22, supposed to be having the time of my life, but i missed college, i missed highschool, i live on a resort island making 45k/year and yet, i don't have a single friend that i can stand (yet i know everyone) and now, when i'm to have the most fun, sex, drugs, parties, and social life.. i'm not, I'm sleeping. 8hours work, then 8 hours sleeping, then three hours up for adult swim, then 5 more hours of sleep.. somone just shoot me so i may sleep and not regret. Confess ID: geuavalx        Posted On: 28-May-2008