I've always had problems with girls, I've made all the precausions in my life to keep myself from being hurt. I was kool with the fact that I'm pretty much unnatractive to all girls who I could be attracted to. well recenty I found out that a girl I was attracted to was interested in me. So I decided to ask her out on a date. Well yesterday we went out, nothing special. dinner and a movie. somewhat generic I admit, but at the end of the eavening she kissed me. This was my first kiss, I know its lame because I'm 24 now. on my drive home I had completly changed my outlook, I guess I was attractive. I mean in 24 years no girls had ever seemed to like me and yet she did. I was walking on air, nothing could bring me down. Today she called me to tell me that she didn't want to see me again. Needless to say I'm somewhat upset. I let my guard down and felt like I was something I'm not, I felt like I was something more than a 24 year old loser who can ever be anything that a platonic friend there to pick up the pieces when all the assholes my female friends date breake thier hearts. I'm back to drowning my mind itno music and books just to keep the hope alive that one day I'll be able to drown out that part of my brain that constantly screams at me that I DON'T DESERVE TO BE HAPPY! God why can't I shut it off? Confess ID: f6gipo2b        Posted On: 23-Jul-2008