Im inlove with my ex. We we together for 8 1/2 months and we broke up 9 months ago and i still think about him everyday. i had a fuck buddy who i would see every now and again and the only way i could come is if i imagained it was my ex in bed with me. when me and my ex got together he made me fall in love with him. after 2 weeks he told me he loved me and i felt the same. I would have done anything for him, and then close to the end of our relationship he stoped telling me he loved me, we stoped sleeping in the same bed, and stoped seeing each other like at all. He had friends who were girls and he spent all his time with them, i thought he was cheating on me, but i didnt confront him, after all, breaking up wityh him would be worse than knowing he had cheated. eventually i couldnt take it any more. he had actually startd to avoid me, and so one morning i called him into the lounge and broke up with him. I cried so much and made he tell me he didnt love me so i had nothing to hold on to. it was the worse day of my life, and from that moment on i have not stoped think about him. he has another girlfrined since, but she was a lot younger and thay have bgroken up now. I havent been able to se him in person since we broke up because i cant face it. I alsmost came face to face with him once, and had a panic attack. i keep thinking about what i would say if i saw him, but i would probably run away. he has changed my whole perseption of men. i loved him so much and i still do! Confess ID: q1hl0xtr        Posted On: 21-Sep-2008