This is a few confessions. I want to fuck the first girl i ever made out with (leanne). even though it was more than 2 years ago, and we haven't talked much since, every time we see eachother, we flirt. im not that attracted to her. but i want her soo bad my girlfriend (sarah) isn't treating me like a boyfriend. she dosen't want to hang out, ever, and she dosen't want to kiss and the sex has tapered off (we've been together for 2 years, since i was 16). ever since she got back from flordia..she say she needs time to figure things out..she's emotionaly unstable.and her mom laughs at her when she cries..she needs me, but i need a girfriend that dosen't need me that bad, i can't have someone be dependent on me, i can't even depend on myself.. recently..i hung out with a friend of mine that sarah dosen't like, her name is alex..and i had the best night of my life at one of alex'es parties, and got totaly trashed.woke up on her couch..and spent most of the day with her. she has a boyfriend that she's been with for over a year. but i have this undying crush on her, and i want more than anything to be with her. i've wanted it since my freshman year in highschool, i saw her in the halls, then i met people that knew her, then i got to know her, and we became the best of friends. then sarah decided she didn't like her and so alex and i stopped talking, and i had a wall covered in pictures and things that alex gave me over the years. and sarah took it down, because she was jealous and insecure. alex got mad at me for being soo whipped, but now that sarah and i are at a bumpy point, alex and i are becoming friends again, and im starting to get a crush on her again, reallly bad. and i don't mind that sarah dosen't seem to love me, as long as alex talks to me. i think we had a thing, alex and I, we hung out, and kissed, and i could've died right there with everything i had always wanted. i don't know why i didn't go for her, i dont know what happened. my love life is always a wreck, and i want alex to know that i love her more than anything, more than i ever loved sarah. sarah was just a fling that never died.and i will always love alex. and i fear that i always will.only. she won't love me back how i love her..i dont know I DONT KNOW.. i bet that 75% of you guys skipped this one, i definatly would have Confess ID: ulaaf3tl        Posted On: 29-Nov-2008