i don't think i will ever get married, but i really want a wedding. i think about having a wedding and running away right afterwards to a remote island with my best friend, who will be a guy so we can have sex all the time. i am so scared of commitment, though. i can base this fear on 2 distinct events in my life. one was in 6th grade during indoor recess in the winter, when we were all in the gym and my best friend (at my request) went and asked the boy i had the hugest crush on if he would go out with me. i was up on the bleachers, he was on the gym floor and as soon as she stopped talking he looked up at me and screamed NO! i found out later he had a girlfriend, who is now my best friend 7 years later. the other event was when i was truly in love, lost my virginity to the man i loved, and haven't seen him since the day after we lost our virginities to each other. that is why i never want to get married, but i want a family and to be a housewife so bad. :( Confess ID: pnrm4s41        Posted On: 28-Jul-2008